Monthly Archives: April 1998

‘The Darkness Grows’

This is me getting all melodramatic about what someone called “regression” dreams. I have bad dreams of dying in what appear to be previous lives (bullshit, of course), and during the period in which this was written the dreams came more frequently and troubled me during the day — it was a lousy couple’a months. What actually caused all of that is grist for a psychologist’s mill; at this point I really don’t care. *grin*

‘The Darkness Grows’

The Darkness Grows.
My Darkness.
With each passing moment, we feel it growing.
Stronger, nearer;
  more insistent its cries for release, its demands for attention.
We feel it calling to us,
  calling from the quiet Shadows we think we hide.
It knows its time is near-
  that soon the walls must crumble and this cancer engulf its host.
But for now-
  for now the Darkness sleeps.

Pain.
Great pain we find in sleep.
Horrid flashes of memory and emotion;
  blinding, terrifying.
The Darkness comes often when we sleep;
  our hold over it is slack, our resolve to resist it weaker.
The Shadows rule our midnight-world,
  and sleep is but a nightmare.
We die each night.

Daylight.
Our world is become a waking nightmare.
A dream without beginning or end-
  just the numbing pain of existence.
Our existence.
What are we doing here?
  Where are we going?
    What do we truly desire?
We wonder what death will feel like.
Asleep without dreams,
  an end with no beginning.
To die is to sleep,
  to sleep is to die.

‘Re-Birth’

I found this one taped inside an old folder. I don’t remember what prompted it, but the meaning should be clear enough.

‘Re-Birth’

A captive Soul
  Concealed
  Encircled in walls of Mystery profound
Freedom calls you
  A silent cry in your heart
  A stifled scream in your breast
There-
  A door
An open door on Infinite space
  The way out
One leap of faith, and you sail to the stars
Take in the glory and beauty
All life’s gifts are yours
One breath of Magick to suffuse the Soul with Divine energy
Spread your wings
  Take flight, and soar through the Heavens
A Re-Birth
  The ashes of a shattered life give rise to perfection